Sunday, November 21, 2010

day 1

something i hate about myself.

not much that i hate about myself. i guess that's a good thing.
but......... i guess

i hate that i feel like i annoy people.

somedays i don't care if people thing i'm annoying. but others times i dwell on how i might have made someone feel uncomfortable or i'm too loud or i'm just way too outgoing sometimes for my own good.

i think most of all i hate feeling like the people i love so much and would do anything for think i'm annoying. i can think of about two times when i've been certain that my best friends didn't want to be around me any more because i was too annoying. at those times in my life i just wanted to hide under a rock and be someone else. it makes me feel terrible.

i don't feel annoying very often though. today i sort of do. i just hope its not the reason that some of my friendships fell apart.

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