it happened

today.

i took a lunch break at 1:30 am. i laughed at how all the staff called it "lunch break." they asked if i would rather them call it "dinner" but I shrugged and said, "whatever you call it, i'm not used to this."

i spent all of the 2 and 3 o'clock hours trying to get a nose bleed under control. not my own. that poor woman couldn't breathe and couldn't sleep. i hurt for her. and i prayed for her every time her call light went off and i went in there to try to get her to relax. i feel like nurses must pray a lot. to know what to do, to know what to say, to know what to notice. i'm not a nurse yet, but i prayed for her. to sleep. she finally did at 4am.

i started yawning at 6:30, while jody was giving report. he told me i could leave. i was so happy he said that. he's going to be a great person to work with.

i listened to "what's in the middle" by the bird and the bee on repeat all the way home. love it. by the time i exited i realized that i really just stayed up all night. good thing cedar is only 45 minutes away. anything longer would have ended up with me falling alseep at the wheel.

8am found me staggering into my room. as i got in my covers, ready to fall asleep, lynsie got up for the day. like the switching of the guard.

i think i fell asleep within 3 seconds of hitting my pillow. i had a dream that i liked a boy. not really sure what his name was in the dream, but it was funny. entertaining really. having crushes is fun, even if it only happens in dream land.

so i could only sleep until 1. i think that's as good as it'll get.

i put a hair bow on my shirt today. people may think the things i choose to wear in public is weird. but i'm not trying to impress them anyway.

i pushed the send button on a message i've been wanting to send for about a month now. i finally decided i didn't care what the person thought. it was something i wanted to do. and guess what? a reply. it happened. 

:)

i'm going to make a unicorn for my favorite 4 year old. it's her birthday. she's great. so as i cut out the fabric i watched despicable me. and i remembered how she can quote parts of it. and how we saw it together in the theatre. and we danced during the previews. and she threw up during the movie. but man, she's adorable.

dan called. i love taco tuesdays even if i don't eat tacos. because i get to talk to him. and sarah. i even talked to dan's girlfriend. she's so cute. they all brought a smile to my face. i hate that i have to be down here and missing them all the time, but i love that we can still be the best of friends. and i love to be remembered.

brittni called and we had a fake fight. i think i got real offended for a second there. and she real apologized. but it was one of those fake fights where we were both confused if it was real offended and real apologizing going on. so it's possible that we're still confused.

mango mousse. yeah. we ate that tonight.

a party in chelsey's room happened. a mini one. because it's not a full party unless lynsie's there too. and she wasn't that time.

i finished out the day with a bit of smiling and thinking. feeling accomplished and like i can do anything.