Day 22

Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Only a few things come to mind.
One of them is super personal, so not telling that one.

Okay. I got one.

Back story: when I was in 6th grade I hated my clothes. Why I just didnt ask for new clothes is beyond me. But I guess part of the problem was that I knew that I would just have to start wearing a bra. And those were so uncomfortable.

So, Tom boy Mindy would wear tee shirts and a large sweatshirt every day. Yes, even in the hot Arizona sun. Anyway, that's not the regret yet.

One day in 6th grade right before I moved to Utah a girl who
Sat next to me asked me why I always wear the same thing everyday and told me it was gross. I told her that I would change my shirt but wear the sweatshirt still. I was so embarrassed.

Now, onto the regret. I was now in 7th grade and I was a loud and obnoxious girl in class soemtimes. One class that I was in I got to be really good friends with a girl named Bobby Jo and a guy named Nick. We laughed and were smart alecs and loud. Well, one time I noticed that Nick wore the same shirt almost everyday. 

I don't know what possessed me to do it, but I ended up asking him why he wears the same shirt everyday and that it was gross. He got quiet and didn't say much the rest of the day. He must have been so embarrassed. 

Almost instantly I felt terrible for saying that. I should have apologized. But I never did. And all through junior high and high school every time I saw him I felt horrible inside.

I wish I wouldn't have said that. I hate making people feel bad about themselves. I hope I never have to be the cause of low self esteem in anyone. I know what it feels like to think little of yourself. And be embarrassed about clothes. Though you'd never think I care much about what I wear. I wore turquoise tights yesterday fir crying out loud.

It's really funny to me that I still feel terrible about this.

Hmmm.